A day from hell

Yesterday.
A day sent straight from hell.
To torment me and the rest of my family.

Ben had a great first full day out of the hospital. The home ordered him an extra long bed so that he couldnt kick the bottom--and if he did move around enough to kick the bottom they had a foam thing over the wood so he couldn't hurt himself badly before they found him. They kept the fan on him to help with the constant temperatures. They found some kind of therapy tool to brace his knees so that he could still move but not rub his legs together. It was an encouraging day.

But then we had yesterday.

I was sitting in my 9am class waiting for it to get started when my mom called me--around 9:10. I answered of course and she said that the nursing home had called her and that Ben had gone into cardiorespiratory arrest and that they were having him transported to a hospital. My mom was on her way to the hospital and she told me to just stay at school and that I needed to be around after school to pick up Joseph and his friend that they'd planned on coming over to play. So I sat through class--we went to the gym and I was keeping it in until a guy in my class asked if I was ok...and of course I wasn't. So of course I was crying and kind of explaining to him, but I probably just sounded like a raving lunitic. I left the gym and went outside to calm myself downn--still fully intending to stay the rest of the day--I had a test and a paper in the next two classes. Then a girl from class came outside to check on me. She was talking about prayer and how I could talk to her and it was really great--but theres no way I could talk so I just wound up crying harder. Then I went home.

I was home about an hour when my mom called me again saying that my aunt had just called her and that she'd been calling the hospital to check on my papaw and no one was picking up in his room--so she'd finally gotten in touch with the nurses station and they told her he was in surgery having some kind of procedure on his lungs. No one was down there with my grandma--so I had to go search them out. Found out that his lung had collapsed.

It was a day from hell.

Ben is in ICU--momma wouldn't let them put him back on the ventilator because of the infection in his lungs so it was extremely touch and go. His fever started to go down at about 2 this morning, but its still 101.8. The nurses wont tell her anything about his condition or the tests they're running--they say to talk to the doctor--but of course the doctor hasn't been in yet.

So of course he is stablizing now but his aggitation is off the charts.

Today has been a run on from yesterday--not quite a day from hell yet but its not been good.

My mom stayed with Ben last night--My step dad is out of town (which I am super excited hes gone)--but that leaves me with my 9 year old brother--playing mom.

I fell down the stairs this morning. Forgot Joseph's lunch because I was trying to feed the dogs. I didn't give my napoleon any water (hopefully hes still got some from yesterday). I forgot to feed the birds and the dogs. I was late getting Joseph to school because he refused to buy lunch when he didn't know what they were having (aprils lunch calender isn't out yet). Had to put makeup on in the car--which I wouldn't have worn it but these circles under my eyes are insane today.

I'm not good at playing mom and still doing the things I need to do. I even got up early.