Just the highlights

I've been slacking.
I have no idea how to put into words how life has been the last few weeks.
I'm not sure I even want to.

Highlights

• My papaw died April 19th a few minutes before 9pm.
• A lot of family time.
• A lot of tears.
• A military funeral.
• The hospital Ben was stuck in can't take care of their patients.
• Administration was alerted.
• After the staff lied a lot.
• He had an allergic reaction to some meds.
• Finally got transferred to the hospital the EMTs wouldn't take him to to begin with.
• Now hes home.
• The 16 hours of daily nursing hes supposed to get isn't here.
• The company that promised this hasn't hired a nurse.
• Let alone the 2 for the entire 16 hours.
• My moms on her own.
• Giving shots, trach care, daily care, meds.
• The antibiotic had to be preapproved by the insurance company.
• It cost $5,000.
• We had to ask them to loan us 6 pills.
• Insurance did approve.
• I went to my sisters wedding.
• 9 hours in a car there..rehersal dinner that night..wedding the next day..home at 3 (4 my time) got up at 9 (10 my time) showered...drove home.
• Almost had a panic attack at the threat of running into my ex.
• My grandma is trying to hook me up with her preacher's grandson.
• The entire church knows.
• I miss my papaw.
• I miss Ben.
• The man who did Bible study with him came to visit us today.
• His names Tony--wife is Veronica.
• I've had several phone conversations that lasted for several hours.
• I haven't done that in a very long time.
• On the nights I don't have someone to talk to I remember why I quit having those conversations.
• I got an A- in Old Testament and an A in English.
• I haven't slept an entire night in weeks.
• I'm a nervous wreck around Ben.
• I need some new books.
• I just really want to get away.
• The beach would be nice.
• Ben nodded his head today.
• I asked if he was glad to be home and he shook it yes.
• Barely, but enough to see.