Tomorrow I might feel differently, but today there is no living in regret.

I throughly believe that I take advantage of the life I've been given. Maybe not all the time, but I let some days pass by without a thought about what I should be doing with them; however, I don't believe in attempting to throughly structure my life. If I did and something unexpected should happen that would alter the schedule in some small way, it would break. The entire world would come crashing down around my carefully structured life. Perhaps, afterwards, I would be able to create a new world in the damage. Perhaps I would not. It is because of that chance that I try my best to give my life a certain flexibility in the structure. I make goals. Goals that I am fighting to accomplish. Goals that serve multiple purposes and leave my life open to possibilities. Does this make me wishywashy? Does this make me weak? I don't think so. I think the weakness would come into play if I was too scared of change. If I thought that life HAD to be the way I planned. God throws far too many surprises for us to believe that. Strength is a hard thing for me to define. Sometimes even the most unstructured lives find their ways to fall down around me. Which is where the earlier thought of taking my life for granted comes into play. Sometimes I never think about things like losing someone. It is not until after the fact that I realize all that I did take for granted and all of the things I should have done better. Is there anything I can do about it now? No. Not really. I can work as hard as possible to make up for my mistakes but sometimes it adds up to nothing. It is, a majority of the time, a lost cause. Should I regret it? Yes. Should I dwell in my regret? No. I will always do my very best to pick my feet up and build something new--Learning from my mistakes the best way I know how.