Grief

Its not good. Just really not good.

Ben's blood tests are coming back showing major muscle deterioration. And today they've reduced his sedation but he doesn't seem to be responding.

They finally let my mom see him yesterday. She is really upset because he didn't respond to her. She stared at his heart rate moniter the entire time hoping he'd recognize her voice with no luck.

Hes got pneumonia in his left lung and an enlarged liver, but hes mainly in the hands of neurologists.

Keep praying for him. Pray for my mom. Pray for my grandparents.

I've sat here looking for inspirational quotes for the last while. Most of them are about how the sorrow in life makes you realize how special your life is. They all seem so egotistical. I do believe that loss and grief eventually make you stronger. It can either make you bitter or congenial. It is about how you deal with it.


“Nothing that grieves us can be called little: by the eternal laws of proportion a child's loss of a doll and a king's loss of a crown are events of the same size”--Mark Twain