Taken For Granted

This month I've learned to never take things for granted. And in all reality I usually don't when it comes to friends or events in my life; however, I haven't done very well in not taking my family for granted. Everyone experiences the loss of a friend. Friendships don't always last. As you grow older they sometimes fray or blur. Family is a different matter. Sure some families grow apart and are fine seeing each other once a year or less and talking every few months. But even despite that, they will always be family. Its not until you could possibly lose someone or already have lost someone that you realize just what you were doing wrong.

The neurologists have decided for sure that my brother has suffered brain injury due to lack of oxygen. The doctors told us yesterday that on top of everything else when they were transporting him from the hospital here to richmond his ventilator tube fell out and they had to detour to another hospital on the way to get it fixed. They don't know the severity of the damage yet. His body is jerking uncontrollably--so bad at times that hes tied to the bed so he doesn't fall out. Hes still somewhat sedated but he didn't respond to my mom, uncle, or cousin at all again yesterday. They say that the neurologists need another week or so to decide the level of brain damage and depending on what they say the doctors will start taking long term actions. They mentioned one of those things in your throat to keep an open airway and permenant feeding tubes.

The jail did a medical furlow now that they realize the condition hes in. They won't have to pay their guards to drive back and forth and won't have to deal with the medical bills and in getting out of it now they can back out of the spotlight.

It isn't fair. He didn't deserve that. Hes lived 28 years with so many problems and disabilities We didn't deserve that. No one does.

I keep repeating Philippians 4:13 in my head. Just over and over. Its not helping yet.

"I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me."