3 months ago today, my brother was moving to Arkansas. 3 months ago today, we had lunch at an amazing japanese restaurant. 3 months ago today, my cousin and I cracked open our fortune cookies to get the same fortune. 3 months ago today, our fortune said we would have good luck 3 months from then.
So. Where is it?
1:15pm came and went..with no good luck.
The day is almost over..with no good luck.
At 2:03 I sat down in my car after class--calling a friend to hang out with--and I looked up. And there was Tehan. It was hard enough to imagine him being here next semester--but to have him there NOW? My friend Omar did come to hang out with me. Omar plays soccer and soon our conversation led to our ex's (his showing up on his doorstep out of nowhere last night)..and of course mine being on campus walking with some coach. Which of course led to the fact that Tehan plays soccer. Which led to the fact that Omar's coach told them there would be a guy from South Africa practicing with them today. Which of course is why Tehan was there. Tehan the South African soccer player. Tehan the guy who broke me into pieces. Tehan the guy who used me. Him practicing with the soccer team just affirms that he really is going to transfer. I hate it. Think Omar will wind up hating me since Tehan talks about people behind their backs? I really hope not. I'd like to think I'm not going to lose friends because of this. But of course I don't know what Tehan is saying behind my back--if anything that is.
Just sitting and talking today felt good.
I went to visit my papaw today. The bruises on his arms from the IVs bleeding underneath his skin bothers me to no end. IVs in general bother me. Really. They make me sick to even think about them being there. Hospitals make me woosy.
And I guess thats enough for tonight. I'm working on A Tale of Two Cities. I'm past page 128 now. I now know what was going on when I played that game on here. But I'm still somewhat lacking in understanding the book--I keep hoping that I'll figure it out on the next page..but its just not connecting yet.
Wednesday, March 26, 2008
Fortune Cookies
Posted by I'm Rachael at 11:11 PM
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That has to be tough. I hope that you wouldn't loose any friends, shouldn't at least in my opinion. Your friends should have their own views of you, with their own history with you to back it up. You friendships shouldn't end on what Tehan says, (if he is saying anything at all).
Good to see you picked up that book. Hope you finish it soon and finally get that question answered...what is this all about? :)
Rob
ps - I feel ya on the hospital thing. I hate any kind of doctors..always get butterflies in my stomach. Just makes me nervous...even if I know there is nothing wrong with me.
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